downhill

just got back MEP results, not exactly very good.

27/50 - theory paper
27/40 - practical.

i currently stand at 60%, if it's upon 90.
anyway, when i was walking to the SAC with xy, his band ic asked him when mep ends. then he said 1 hour. aftert hat he laughed, because it's so obvious that it ended as he's carrying his bag? wth. lol.

overall, with 70% thing, i've obtained 62.5% for overall mep, now isn't that depressing. =.=''
well after all my hard work, typing notes and reading. WHERE IS GOD WHEN I NEEDED HIM THE MOST! my gosh.

and also to 1.01, now that i've fallen. you all must be rejoicing. you've always wanted me to do badly and demoralized me.

and can't to think, i don't think i've slacked that much to deserve these kind of marks.
other people who never even gave a dam about studying, or practising for their practical pieces done better than me!

am i just not gifted at music, or what. there's also a question on musical devices, i put retardion, and mr. wong happily wrote: is that what is happening to you?.. demoralized.

the last thing i wanted to know that all my targets are not met and i fall short of everything.
demoralizing, absolutely.